better left unsaid

this week has been hell week..seriously i mean starting with my sister pmsing..geez it just pisses me off so much. i mean do i pms that badly? like i just start putting down everyone and cussing like crazy?? i swear, this woman has been trying to do the most hurtful and meanful things in order to get what she wants. seriously. it's not even funny anymore and i'm starting to hate weeks when my sisters pms...goddamn, i'm sorry, but frankly there is no outlet for me to rid my feelings of my anger, frustration, and sadness, nor is there anyone who i can really talk to about what i feel anyway. they'd just probably say i'm in the wrong and i should just learn to "ignore" it. but how can it be ignored when all they want to do is lash out at you whenever they feel darn well feel like it. sometimes i can't stand being at home and all i long for is to go out with friends because sadly i don't like staying in the house all day with my sister. it's kinda sad. and for those wondering which sister -- who else. god..and if it isn't enough my sister had to blab out who did this..and basically spilling out everything i've told her to shut up about just so she can feel better about herself. i mean honestly, aren't there things better left unsaid?? with what she said, i can feel much better in college knowing my mom's going to worry about me all the time. i can't stand it..and i can't stand the way she treats others. my only strategy...just to be quiet and not say anything that might upset her.

well i'm off..i just hope she cools down cuz if not, i'm just taking a nap and doing other stuff..even though i am a pussy, i'd rather avoid getting hurt by her.