what the hell is that shit?

ahahaha...my earth sci ta cracks me up sometimes. he spilled a bottle of some kind of white powder and room started smelling funky. xD anywho, earth sci is starting to get a bit easier to understand now. i'm starting to look at things more carefully and to deduce my answers rather than guess blindly. anywho, ucla rally today. whoo bruins. ahaha bonfire and parade...what can be better than burning stuff i guess. i'm not going cuz i got labs to finish up and not to mention i gotta "shop" for my secret santa thing.

100th post!!!!

omg i made it. 100 posts in less than 4 months. quite an accomplishment. i am sorry that i complain too much. after talking with priscilla i truly understand the meaning of "shit happens." and i'm going to try harder and i'm going to work my ass off! and not complain. :) from now on, i'm just going to roll with it and i love my school. peace love and gap. man i wanna go shopping now. :D

burned out..

man i'm so brain dead right now..and not to mention i have one of the most...ugh..i don't know how to describe my t.a. for my cluster. it's just everytime she goes over meaningless things and expects us to participate. i think the vast majority of the discussion is based on what she "thinks" or what the professors said in lectures. not to mention the way she grades makes me angry sometimes. i got a really bad score on my essay and i just need to rant or let it out. i know she's a sweet lady and all, but come on..sometimes the things that she says i disagree or i just don't understand at all. note to other people who plan on going to uc's: it's important when choosing which t.a.'s you're going to have because ultimately, they'll determine your grades. ugh. so if you're stuck in the first week of the quarter with a bad t.a. i suggest you switch to another one at all costs. you don't want to realize at the end of the road that you have a t.a. who doesn't grade fairly!

but in the end..who am i to complain? i just needed to let it out. sorry to everyone who might think i'm whiny..i'm just so frustrated with college. i want winter quarter to start already! =(

darn..

i want it to be christmas break already =(
i still have 60+ swipes! omg... >.>;;
it's beginning to feel a lot like christmas...
anyone watch veronica mars??? it was one of the episodes i've ever seen!!! ahhh!!
catching up on grey's anatomy thursday. yippeee.
i felt like giving my TA in one of my classes a bad evaluation..but it was more of an evaluation based on our discussion section. i just felt like bagging on her. i don't know why..
*sigh*
another essay to tackle. just great.

pressure..

i'm so feeling it.....
hmm..i feel really bummy..i didn't too well on an essay..and..now i fear for my grade. =(
dang it is freezing outside..brrrrrr..

oh man, at rendevouz me and cilla were waiting to pick up our breakfast and i saw this one chick i new in the beginning of the quarter when we just moved in..but i couldn't really tell if she was the same girl who was waiting for her food at rendevouz! i was afraid to say her name because then i'd feel even worse if it hadn't been her name all along. xP

heater = cooler?

it's cold. the weird thing is that in the morning the vent above our room used to release warm air and now it is cold air. i do not understand why this is so. and not to mention it is 1:00 am in the morning and i have spent my entire night reading and making up questions. i'm so inefficient with my time. it's not good. i have a million other things to do and yet i feel like i'm wasting all my time. it's bad..

strange people

cold day calls for a hot drink! tee hee, sipping a mocha cafe and just trying to get my reading done for tomorrow. freaking reading. i gots like probably 50 pages or so. arg.

anywho, my roommate told me about a guy who came up to our floor! there were ucpd asking him what he was doing here and stuff. it's scary cuz it happened right down our floor two. dang. and what's even more scary was that my roommate recognized the man from the day before wandering around and carrying a blanket. eepers. how do people like him come to our floor after we get the door fixed downstairs? ah. i'm scared now. =/

new pics

check them out on facebook or myspace. hehehe. :) anywho, i hate earth sci with a passion. the report was absolutely killing me but luckily i finished it. like almost. well technically it is 2 pages but it doesn't really reach the end of the 2nd page so i don't know if i'd call it "finished". i'm planning to put some finishing touches on it tomorrow before class starts.

dang i'm soooo behind on everything. i got reading, labs..and more reading and studying to do. this week shall be hell.

oooklah.

i sooo need help with that stupid report for earth sci 1f. dammit. i'm so frustrated with that class but i so darn love the people in that class. it's a shame.

whoo. sexy back. get your sexy on. that song is so old now. lol i'm just listening to whatever's on this laptop.

i wanna play the wii (the yes) so much. ah... i want christmas break to start already! like now. darn. i think about two more weeks of torture will do.

dang i am up early and i'm hungry..time to raid the fridge! oooOO, half eaten cheesecake. xD

a lot to learn

talked with chris about sad songs..and then relationships stuff...and then to partying and drinking. so much i didn't know and what really goes on. crazy.

whoo...drugs

i went to help out at my local pharmacy and all i did was count some drugs. wow. i mean i thought there would be more, but then again it was my first day on the job. i didn't mind it much and working as a pharmacist means you have to be extra careful. makes me feel a bit uneasy sometimes because i'll try to be the most careful person in the world and still make mistakes. eep. but nonetheless, it isn't so bad.

thanksgiving

i hope everyone had a good thanksgiving. mine was ok..although my mom had to work later on in the evening, we just had turkey and rice. xD while watching that thanksgiving episode of friends playing football. so freakin hiliarious. for thanksgiving brunch, i went out with my family to eat some viet food. omg so good, i felt like i haven't ate in so long. lol i savored that thing. anywho, afterwards my grandma gave me and my sisters 20 bucks. then i said happy new year in chinese and my grandma started cracking up and saying that's not how you say it. then we all laughed. but yea i think it part of my grandma's b-day too which i inevitably forgot. i'm a sad little grandchild. =( but yea i put that money to good use. i went to the sales today to buy some sweaters for school, a harvest moon ds game! whoot whoot. i was happy with my purchases. lol the harvest moon game is ok...but it's still harvest moon which is one of my favorite games. i want to get final fantasy if it ever goes on sale. anywho, going to read now. i have tons to do...and then finals! ah.......=( i'm getting all bummy already.

yay

so today was fun. just got back from meeting up with my cousin. she's so cute. xD so yea, we all talked and ate and watched some tv. i'm glad she's doing well and all.

anywhooo, excited about going home tomorrow! finally, hahaha, i've had enough of being here. i went to the gym today with cilla. we played some racquetball..sorta. we didn't know how to play the game, but we just kept hitting the ball. it was fun. then we stopped by the tennis court to get some left over balls that no one claimed. hahahahahaha, now we can play tennis.

i gotta read mad crazy. i'm so glad tutoring was cancelled. yippeeee.

youtube....

is the devil when it comes to schoolwork!!!!
x.x

on a lighter note..the nintendo wii came out! whoo!!! anyone has it?? fess up! i'mma be coming over to your house on the weekends. XD

feeling a lot better :)

yay..recovered...i feel so stupid. i should have taken the meds earlier and then i wouldn't have had to gone through so much pain! goddamn -_-;; me and my confidence..i hate it. in the end, meds solve everything!

anywho, i've been doing horribly in my science class. i hate the subject -- period, but i love the professor and students in the class. kind of an ironic twist. sometimes i regret taking earth science in the first place, but then i have come to realize that there are wonderful people there.

man feeling homesick and i gotta do laundry here later. it's piling up and i have no room left to put all my dirty clothes. and i have to study hardcore and clean up my room. it's uber messy. =/

it's going to be week 8 and then finals shall come. it's crazy, the quarter's already over and i'm just getting used to the pace of the classes. it's tough. but i'm finally getting the hang of it.

on another note, i dislike the way people from USC *cough* especially one of my friends who is attending USC as of now. she keeps putting down UCLA cuz we apparently suck at football. ok no need to bag on us -_-;; everytime she ims me it's like, UCLA sucks. yes thanks, as if i need to hear a negative comment about my school. we all have pride in our school, but please save your comments elsewhere..not in front of me. i don't go around saying USC sucks. i would never stoop to that level.

my cool school

lol yay ucla has made headlines once again. first with the tasering going on in powell library. damn freakin crazy. couldn't find the video, but if anyone does can they give me the link??? thank you, most very kind. here's the article:

[BREAKING NEWS]: Student shot with Taser by UCPD officers

UCPD officers shot a student several times with a Taser inside the Powell Library CLICC computer lab late Tuesday night before taking him into custody.

No university police officers were available to comment further about the incident as of 3 a.m. Wednesday, and no Community Service Officers who were on duty at the time could be reached... (read more)

There were some walkouts going on in westwood. I don't know where to find the article and I'm so tired too..but if anyone saw the news and saw a black female student talking..she's in my freshman cluster class! lol, that's pretty darn cool.

anywho, tired...and i finally got my paper done. i'm afraid that if i edit anymore then i'll just end up confusing myself. best to leave it to ta's and hopefully see if they allow us to revise! :)

worried about enrolling into my classes for winter quarter. i hope i get the easy math and english professors. going crazy..x.x

down with college essays..

grr. this paper is making me more frustrated than i realized! i got my draft all done..and then i have people look over them. i mean the tutor says oh that's a pretty good thesis and i had the ta look at it too. they said it was good. but then i have peers look at it and they're like, thesis is weak. is it debatable?? omg...seriously. i have no clue how to write theses anymore man. i mean, in high school and semi college (when i was at chaffey taking comp classes) these were the types of theses i wrote! arg. it's frustrating..college papers. nothing is ever good enough!! arg. it's confusing...confusing...college.. frustration..anger..loss of hair..breaking out all over. @.@ not to mention bad dreams at night... -_-;;

E is for Essay

Maaan. Essays. I am getting so distracted right now. No joke, I keep going back online looking at stuff. Waiting for people to email me. I'm such a nerd. Haha, anywho, I'm done anyway for now, waiting for the fun part (peer editing) tomorrow in discussion.

sleepy.....

ah i told myself i would read..and then i fell asleep in the library...x.x
i found the shortcut! from south campus to the residence halls. awesomeeeeeeeee.
arg...midterm review saturday..whoo whoo..

up early..

and for what?? =(
man what's up with blogger saying it's unable to complete the request??? how annoying >.>;

cut hair..

omg..i cut my hair..but not at the usual length..waaaaay short. almost like a guy's hair would be except with my bangs cuz i still like them. XD anywho, yea....i went to get it cut and i told the lady that i wanted it a bit layered, but at the same length. i don't think she really understood how i wanted it and ended up cutting a lot more off >.<; i'm going to wear hats and stuff and wait til it grows out again.. *sigh*

nancy and julie went to magic mountain for the day. man i miss that place already. i love the rides..so exhilirating. hehe, maybe after school's done i can go on all the rides again. so hella fun. anywho, back to my essay now, tee hee.

earth sci is giving me a headache.......x.x

i wish they had a girl version...

Goodbye My Lover - James Blunt
Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer and when i wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

hopefully...

man college..i mean i'm here, living my own life, doing what i do...taking responsibility for only myself yet my parents don't seem to understand it -- especially my mom. i was just visiting a good friend of mine from the 4th floor of the building i live in just to watch some korean dramas with her and yet my mom goes off on me and asking me where i am? i mean wtf, i'm sorry, i can't seem to understand why she just goes off sometimes not knowing what i have to say for it. she always seems to believe that what she says and thinks is best for me and sometimes i cannot understand why she tells me i can't do this or that while i'm here. i did my homework, i'm studying, i am fully aware of my academic choices, yet my mother can't seem to fathom that i have a life here in college and i need to make something of myself. i can't sit in my dorm all day and just study. there is a life outside there. in college there's room to grow inside and outside. i just can't seem to do it with my mom looking upon me all the time.

i love my mom to death, i love my dad to death. i love them both, i really do. but there are times when i have to stand up and say something or rather do something...it's just so damn hard sometimes.

there's gotta be more for me. i know i am being selfish but all my life i've been doing nothing in high school and now i have the chance to do something, be something and to finally take charge. and so far, i see little progress.

update

right now i'm feeling so blue......

whew

midterms over for now. still awaiting midterms for math, but i'm not going to worry about it since it's stuff i've gone over..anywho, i got an essay due next week. but i'm happy about this week b/c it will be veteran's day and that means extra day off. muhaha. anywho, i'm off to finish all my crap for the week and just relax on the weekend.

college is blah..

man i need to get out more..XD
i wanna go home.
feeling a bit homesick..and i gotta take home all the extra clothes my mom gave me..oi..-_-;;;
anywho, i needs to study for earth sci.

update firefox!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1111

midterm tomorrow..oh noes

study is a must.
day was cool, the earth sci people are really chill and laid back. plus they help me a lot! man i feel lame in that class because i feel like i can't contribue sometimes! darn..must read and voice input after midterms ^^